So I was thinking recently, while developing a lot of code for a decidedly useless language--MUSHcode, PennMUSH specifically--that if I applied my skills and focused on mastering something like python, mathematics, geometry, anything at all that wasn't useless, I'd be set.

Then it occurred to me that I've tried before, and I simply haven't got the attention-span to do it. Even if someone tells me to do something, I never can find time to do it. Maybe it would work better if someone outside of my family told me to; -1 point for homeschooling, I suppose. It still has a lot of points, though.

Anyway, that prompted me to write out a list of my strengths and weaknesses, a la The Honeymooners oddly enough. Ralph did good.

Perceived strengths:
- I'm independent. The way I learn has nothing to do with other people. Not directly, at any rate.
- I'm good at music. At least so far. Maybe any talent I have will progress no further, I dunno.
- I'm good at acting. Getting into character at least; stage acting may be a slightly different story. I role play a lot.
- I'm good at programming. (A few other things than MUSHcode)
- I've a remarkably positive outlook on life.
- It's hard to get me down for a long period of time. Things always work out.

Perceived weaknesses:
- I've no attention span, no follow-through. Good ideas, but no practicality. (That's a phrase I'm liking more and more)
- I've got a short fuse for my family although I'm working on it. This is not an issue with friends and family outside of this household, though, which worries me slightly.
- It's difficult to control my actions when I'm angry; I'm working on it double time.
- I'm maybe too hard on myself sometimes, although I don't think this is one of those times.
- I hesitate to speak well of myself, for past actions and weaknesses.
- I'm overweight. Not unhealthy, by any means, nor particularly unattractive, (I'm not particularly attractive either) but I am overweight. And big. Part of the big is just being big, but I can't deny that I have a belly..
- I'm terrible at elementary math--division at least--but if I work at it I can understand most higher math. It's just like a programming language.
- I'm not that great at geometry either.

It would be futile to write all of my strengths and weaknesses down, because like any human being, I've a lot. I'm literally a strong person, but I don't know pi to more than like 5 places. 3.14 something... Make that two places.

So what am I going to do about it, hmm? Well, I don't know. The idea is to improve your strengths, and rid your weaknesses. There will always be weaknesses, but I listed the ones that I think can be fixed.

I started this a while ago, trying to be less angry, more helpful and such. The helpful part still needs work, but I think I don't get angry as much. I'll have to ask. I'll keep working on that, obviously, but next I will probably try to lose weight. I should drink more water too, just thinking of it.

As for strengths, I'll just keep working at stuff like I have been, if I take vocal lessons or classes at MCC for anything. There's nothing there that needs special attention.

I'm not looking for any compliments, though I suppose I won't tell you off if you post such things; constructive criticism or suggestions would be more welcome. :) (In private, if it's something that should obviously be private)