my mom found a way to get rid of those pain pills i got for my teeth. she poured water into the pill container and they turned to mush, then she poured them down the drain. i would have kept them for other things, but she was pretty freaked out about them. and it didnt help when i told her that it was one of the most common drugs that people overdose on to commit suicide with. it's called oxycontin.

so, i'm giving up on stargate universe. it's a cheap knockoff of every recent sci-fi show out there. two good characters cant save a whole show. v is a lot better, and it's nice because bob and bill at work are watching v so we can have weekly v discussions. but it's going off the air for 3 or 4 months after the next episode, so i'll probably fill the time with whatever dvds we get for christmas, and random shows in the category of 'don't hate, but don't care about'.

thanksgiving. oh boy. i hope this will be a good time to get all my christmas shopping done. i did go to walmart this week, and that aisle with the gift sets wasn't real well stocked yet or something. and man their prices were sky high compared to last year. well, in the food aisle they seemed high. i was craving butter cookies, and those little tins of them that used to be $2 are now $3. a lot of things have an extra $1 tacked onto them. they had some good westerns on dvd that i hadn't seen before. i grabbed a few at $5 each. they're going into my dad's box. and i might actually buy my brother all clothes. i like buying clothes. better than most things, and i know he wont cry or anything if i get him something he doesn't like.

I just for whatever reason ended up on the MSUM website, and I clicked on the campus tour button because I didn't remember the website having a campus tour, and while sitting there looking at the pictures... I got teary.

I am having the worst bout of homesickness I have ever had. I'm a little sad right now that I can't be with my family for the holiday season, but every time I start to think about Minnesota and the people there I start to cry. As cheesy as this is going to sound, I absolutely left my heart with that theater department. And it's... kind of difficult without it. That's all.

www.peopleofwalmart.com is not work appropriate. i just wasted some time looking at every single picture. nostalgic.

also the peppermint mocha latte at starbucks is really good. and military rations from the army surplus store taste bleh. worse than those microwavable campbells soups.

Your lashing out at me is fantastically compelling and inappropriate.


I think that qualifies for one of my favorite lines on television ever. I LOLed.

The storylines on Glee are completely nonsensical and ridiculous, and I think I love the show all the more for it.



Also, I've been watching So You Think You Can Dance this season (I've always wanted to before, but never really had time during Straw Hat to start getting invested in a show) and I'm completely obsessed. I mean, it makes me feel ridiculously inadequate about my own dance abilities, but it's just so much fun. I also think that Cat Deeley should be nominated for host of every reality show ever. She is just delightful.

not wanting to sleep again. i guess i know why. maybe i'm trying to create more conflict in my life. i don't always like the way people react to me. nervous. weird. a guy at work told me i was friendly. i was going to correct his obvious failure of discernment, but i didn't manage to get the words out.

my brother got a little video camera and annoyed christine at his work (the same christine from walmart). he showed me the video. in the video she was like: oh no i look terrible, and i said she might have gained weight, then he said: ok, i'll tell her you said that. he would too. i dunno, she looked fine. he's obnoxious though, hopefully he won't get himself in trouble. he took pictures of little school bus things, like where someone installed a reflector wrong and he had to fix it.

my aunt and uncle are happily asleep in the other room. i am being quiet. looking for ways to annoy people who may or may not deserve it.

my uncle and his wife were here today. they are pretty fun, we spent all afternoon hanging out, and my grandmother came over for a few hours. i think they're leaving in the morning, so they're staying in our spare room. we had dinner at the rib crib. it was good. the serving sizes are just wrong *guilt*. they're not too expensive. like the olive garden and macaroni grill are insanely expensive. my uncle's son works at the olive garden in dallas i think and he said that the rich people don't hardly tip, but the middle class people leave good tips. and my uncle's wife was talking about mexico being a dangerous place. she made it sound like they kill people for fun now. women, children, she says around 20 murders some days just in juarez. they live right next to the border in el paso. so it's drug cartels and the border.

oh, and i bought something. my company had auctions for its old computers, and my computer is slow. it was the cheapest thing at walmart a few years ago. but this computer is one that my company was using to run autocad software and stuff, so it has a high end video card and a fast processor. i still have to get it a dvd drive and a new harddrive before i hook it up, then i'll get around to erasing my computer's harddrive. the 'new' one came with a 17" flat screen monitor, keyboard, mouse, and speakers. for $150. it's has a 3.40ghz processor, 2 gigs of memory, and a 40 gig hd. which beats my 3.20ghz processor, 512 meg memory, 150 gig hd.

my uncle was lecturing my dad about stocks. he's really into the stock market. he said one time a clerk asked him if he wanted to buy a lottery ticket, and he said, "i tried that once and i lost". the one time he tried it he spent $3 on a ticket. so he does the stock market instead. he recommended some stocks. one of them is for warren buffet's company, berkshire hathaway (i think), and it's over $3000 for one share, so i dunno. i guess warren buffet is smart and whatnot, but that must be for the highrollers.

my brother showed him his ford stock. he made 68% earnings on his money, so imagine his life savings, since i don't want to use a real amount, say $100, and now he has $168. i invest a real small amount of my savings, and made 30% on it. my brother has more money than me yet again, since his crazy risk strategy is paying off so far.

i've been getting to bed kinda late. i dunno, i just feel the need for keeping myself awake at night thinking about world issues. nothing is really coming of it. but i'll just believe there is a purpose to the madness and keep on keeping on. i had such a weird dream the other night, but i didn't write it down because i always wake up in work mode, and go through my routine. stuff gets forgotten. and i was probably up real late that night. my dream seemed very purposeful, and i was getting myself in trouble. it stood out, since i don't always feel a sense of purpose.

the things i feel purposeful in doing are things like solving endless math problems, interpreting dream symbols, and interpreting imagery and emotions conveyed in writing to determine the biases of the author. and the last item might get me in trouble.

my uncle is in town. i'll go hang out with him and his wife tomorrow. maybe we can take my grandmother out to dinner. big family event.

christmas is coming up and this is the least prepared i have ever been. i need to get inspired to spend money. i hang out with my brother and he's always buying crap. but i don't wanna take him shopping with me. and it's so annoying, every time i go to walmart i forget to go look at their gift set stuff. i love that walmart aisle during christmas, they have all the bath sets and perfume and lip balms etc. i really need to get there this weekend, because i have a feeling it will be trashed out after thanksgiving.

i survived. it was tough, but the worst feels over. i did go to work the day after, which for the most part wasn't bad, i got stuff done like i wanted to, but towards the end of the day if i had had a pain killer i would have taken it. they gave me these super strong ones, narcotic type stuff. but after getting home i was fine, so it looks like i'll get through this without any pain killers.


i can mark my recovery by my coffee intake:
day one = no coffee
day two = a few spoonfuls of coffee
day three = half a cup of coffee
day four = two cups of coffee

my cheeks are still kind of swollen and i'm avoiding the letter 's'. it's hard to eat, and yet with all the ice cream i might have gained a pound. blarg.

hasn't got a lot to say.